Tumblr (3.0; @maddieann210)http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lj7r3shGba1qz7ymyo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://tumblr.photojojo.com/post/4398755049">photojojo</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Ever wonder what texting looks like to people with x-ray vision?</p> <p><small>(Photo by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ideum/">Ideum</a>)</small></p> </blockquote>http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4427710208http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4427710208Thu, 07 Apr 2011 20:05:08 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ljafc8dEeN1qbnhtpo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>hes waving at us!</p>http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4427701316http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4427701316Thu, 07 Apr 2011 20:04:48 -0400<p><em>are this years apologies every last time I come home&#8230;</em></p> <p>Yeah I just opened up with a fall out boy song, because right now strangely enough that stupid song is the only thing getting me through the day&#8230;</p> <p>So lets make this note, 4/7/11 a date of many of firsts.</p> <p>My first tumblr account.</p> <p>My first Handles Icecream of the year.</p> <p>&amp; my first psychological burn out.</p> <p>My first time crying in a long time.</p> <p>&amp; the first time I decided to find help on my own.</p> <p>I emailed a psychologist in my area today about therapy to see if she takes my insurance. And I hope she does, cause I need this.</p> <p>I feel like I am going up in flames. As I walk through my day. and no body knows..but I&#8217;m on fire slowly burning to my death&#8230;and not a single person stops, or even makes eye-contact as I burn. I don&#8217;t even think I expect them too.. I don&#8217;t want pity. I want real help.</p> <p>I understand life sucks. I understand life is busy. I understand that your life sucks as much as mine and you don&#8217;t have time to reach you&#8217;re neck out for me..But I kinda wish someone would.. </p> <p>I have lost everything. I lost everyone close to me because I&#8217;m foolish&#8230;and I can&#8217;t take it..One minute I&#8217;m burning up in flame, the next I&#8217;m drowning&#8230; I ffeel like all I&#8217;ve done today was cry..</p> <p>I know all that I&#8217;ve been talking about are signs of depression. I wish I could control it. I feel like I have no control over my own life. </p> <p>Iam also a hypocrite I hate when people cry about their lives. but I am so far down&#8230;I&#8217;ve become what I never wanted. I hope someday I&#8217;ll delete this so that no one knows how pathetic Maddie Ann really is&#8230;..I want people to see me as strong, I try so hard to be strong, but I&#8217;m crashing beneth myself..</p> <p>&#8230;one time I felt like this before&#8230;I was younger..and had my best friend had told me when I feel like the world is too strong to hold up on my own, I always have them[my friends] to hold it up for me. I must&#8217;ve been 12&#8230;I&#8217;ll probably never forget that&#8230;but now?</p> <p>Where are you now&#8230;.?</p> <p>Who is holding up my world now?</p>http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4426358253http://maddieann210.tumblr.com/post/4426358253Thu, 07 Apr 2011 19:15:31 -0400